THE PERFECT DRUG*

I have abused drugs, I have abused alcohol and many other things, but I have one true addiction, that has remained for years.
In fact, as far as I can remember, I have had this addiction since my childhood. And it’s growing inside of me and it’s incontrollable. And I don’t want it to be.
In fact, I let myself gladly sink in.

It’s my father who introduced me in the first place. In fact, it’s the first gift I received that I can actually remember. It was the most beautiful and powerful gift ever. And a part of who I am is forever bounded to this gift.

When he was 18, my father was a hippy, listening to the cool rock bands, smoking spliffs with his pals and taking many other things, hanging around at festivals, and so on…

From this amazing period between the 60’s/70’s, my father handed down to my brothers and me this incredible musical richness.

And that’s where my so very delightful addiction comes from.

The first gift I can ever remember was a vinyl of Joe Cocker in concert that my father gave to me. I was 5 or 6. 
Then, music and I became strictly bound, and the relationship never went away.

Allan Bloom said: " Nothing is more singular about this generation than its addiction to music"

Indeed, music is to me the most vivid, thrilling, inspiring, exciting and stimulating addiction ever. It has taken control of my life, my moods, … all of myself and me!

One song can instantly change my mood, my way to perceive the outside and the others.

Once my brothers decided to divide up part of my father’s musical heritage: one took the 50’s – 60’s, the other one the 60’s-70’s, I absorbed all this to create a global knowledge in rock’n’roll and blues music, and to follow this thirst for music knowledge and improve it by discovering new bands and new style of music.

Actually, I am pretty proud of my musical knowledge, music library and influence.

From basic rock, I explored psychedelic, post-punk, British punk, US punk, metal, nu metal, metal hardcore, emocore, alternative rock, pop rock, indie rock, punk cabaret, trip hop, drum & bass, chillout… and many others kind of music.

There is not really any kind of music I’m not interested in listening to. I trust that I can find at least one good band in all types of music. Even if my roots belong to rock’n’roll, I don’t reject any form of music. And my thirst for more new music is never quenched.

Music is my addiction, my obsession.

I can’t spend a day without listening to music, my headphones and my Ipod are on as soon as I am out of my front door. Itunes is my best friend. In fact I can spend an entire night doing nothing, just browsing at my Itunes, as if I were hypnotized!

My devotion to music pushes me to go from Website to Website and to concerts, looking for new bands, all to find incredible original sounds. Hoping to discover unknown band that I would love impulsively, irrationally, immediately. The way I love music.

For most of my friends, I am a reference in music knowledge, always aware of artists long time before most people know who they are and before they are already the next big thing! And even if I try not being pretentious, I have to admit that I am pretty proud being approached by my friends for music recommendations.

As a 4th year communication student, I want to work in the music industry. Organising concerts, booking and promoting artists are my great plans for the future.

So, who I am now, and what I want to do with my professional life is definitively bound to this great gift I received from my father when I was a little girl. And for that, I thank him eternally and forever!


"My life is music. And in some vague, mysterious, and subconscious way, I have always been driven by a taut inner spring which has propelled me to almost compulsively reach for perfection in music, often--in fact, mostly--at the expense of everything else in my life."
Stan Getz

* The headline of the post is named after a song from Nine Inch Nails ;)